Day 88

I think it's time to start thinking about Christmas, but i'm avoiding it.

I'm not rich enough for it to be Christmas yet.

Cliques are interesting. 

And intimidating.

I get totally freaked when i'm faced with people that are just so much cooler than I am.

I can't talk to them.

That's a type of clique, right?

Clique. Weird word. Like discotheque.

Sometimes they aren't intentional, but they're always there.

I like to think of myself as pretty approachable but apparently I give out "i'm cooler" vibes sometimes.

I'm going to try not to.

I hate it when it happens to me.

Work was okay today.

I'm still really tired though.

Not eating enough meat still. 

Grrr.

Something I struggle to find a stance on at the moment is homeless people on the streets of Melbourne.

The other day, I walked down Collins St and saw three beggars in 2 blocks. 

Walking back, someone had given 2 of them pies. Like, had gone and bought meat pies and given it to them.

But one guy missed out, I assume because he was too far away.

Made me happy & sad all at the same time.

I read recently in mX about someone who got arrested for giving a dollar to a homeless man.

Apparently it's illegal?

As well as "they're just going to spend it on drugs.." 

Hmm.

Another conversation/news article i've read revealed that a certain percentage of these 'homeless' actually have normal families and homes to go to but choose not to!?!

It's so confusing.

On things like abortion, gay rights etc, i like to know a little about it and have a general idea about how I feel. 

I'd never enter into debate, but especially for myself, i like to have a stand on things.

With this, i'm completely thrown.. I have no idea what to think/feel.

That is all.

oh, and that english boy stood me up today.............. oh well.