Day 118

New Years Eve.

DA DA DAAAAAAAA.

Hmm.

When I worked at Maccas, I always worked NYE.. first few years until midnight, then until 10pm.

It wasn't so bad. I had never really done anything special before so I didn't feel like I was missing out. Two years ago.. no, 3 years? I don't know.. I started going to Lisa's, coz she always has a party and it's always people I know which is fun. Then last year I went to Aaron's, same crowd as Lisa's plus a few extras. I drover & it was super fun still. 

However.

With everything that's gone on in the last few weeks, my brain isn't feeling so stable. I love my friends with everything I have but this year, I don't know if I can handle the tensions & the dramas that will undoubtedly show their faces after everyone has a few drinks.

So I'm on the hunt for something different which has manifested itself in the form of Charmaine, Jas, Mel, Tess & myself tripping off to Phillip Island tonight :)

I'm really looking forward to it, actually.

Gunna wear me a dress & everythin, luv.

Yeeeerp.

A little bit bummed coz there were a fair few parties on that I could have gone to that probably would have been fun. But you know.. i would have gone to see specific people and when there's a bunch of people milling around it's hard to catch up. Mmm.

PROS & CONS OF NYE IN GENERAL

P - good reason to party. good friends. new beginnings. people coming together. a chance to reflect on the year just passed and be thankful. good time to implement change.

C - people just using it as a reason to drink excessively. stupid traditions/expectations. new years resolutions. makes people feel lonely. 

PROS AND CONS OF MY IMPENDING NYE CELEBRATIONS

P - great girls, beach, road trips, being outside, new experiences, bonfires

C - could get really cold, won't know anyone else, sleeping in a tiny tent with 4 others is not fun, have to road trip it HOME again, no idea what i'm getting myself into.  missing out on seeing Lisa & the crew, as well as the Hopkins & co who invited my fam to their party :(