Day 56

work/music meeting

work: busyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. gotta love wednesdays. i was really tired from going to bed late last night.

music meeting: good. i had a V at lunch and it's made me jittery. plus there's lots in my brain at the moment.

so it was hard to concentrate in places. but everyone is so lovely! and we danced to frank sinatra.

brain expoldations.

new job. would need something that's good money and lots of hours to save heaps by Christmas but want to dissapear for two weeks in january (beach mission) which wouldn't go down well with Chrissy being the biggest business season like, ever. Plus I want to go overseas for all of february PLUS want to work full time for the remainder of this year but go down to part time with guaranteed hours if i go back to uni next year.

Perfect job? Anyone got one? I'm so staying a the potter. +sigh+

jesus. am i okay with where i am right now? is it a race to who can be the most spiritually enlightened? can i marinate in one lesson for months on end or is this laziness? or dedication and thorough understanding? why is speaking in tongues so important for prayer? how come i've always been fine with certain areas of christian life but now suddenly it all seems outdated and irrelevant? why am i suddenly doing and saying and thinking things i would never have dreamed of and being okay with it? why is it that i'm so sure about what i believe yet i have no theological reason for it? is it okay to base you life on something you can't debate over with complete certainty? is that all part of growing as a christian?

life. is routine ruining me? am i the person this year has made me or am i just in a phase? why does my hair always look better when it's dirty? why is it that when i have finally reached a stage of being able to appreciate the beauty of a full night's sleep i can never get any?

playlist. from memory.

the shake (awful feeling)

in for the kill

heartbreaker

gimmie sympathy

the sweater song

i wish you were here

orpheus

you can call me al

angel

never miss a beat

i miss watching tv with my housemates.