Day 15

WARNING. THIS IS GOING TO BE A WHINGE POST.

IF YOU DONT LIKE WHINGERS YOU WILL PROBABLY HATE ME AFTER THIS.

CONSIDER YOURSELF WARNED.

so tired.

i hurt.

inventory.

glands are swollen

coughing

sore head and stomach.

it's thursday.

i think.

i'm officially past it and in need of a few nights good sleep.

why am i doing this to myself?!

i went out tonight (which was awesome by the way. review below.)

i went out tuesday. (grrrrrrrrr)

i didnt get my day off on wednesday. (think of the money)

((WHEN WILL I STOP JUSTIFYING MY IRRESPONSIBILITY!? I NEED TO STAY HOME AFTER WORK. BAH))

i've booked myself up for saturday and possibly friday night.

i'm determined to kill myself.

slowly and painfully.

it's so hard to be good when noone believes that you're sick!

i can seem fine.

mostly i am.

but i'm so over waking up every day and just hurting all over.

i'm over not being able to be out for more than a couple of hours without collapsing.

i'm over being sensible with my time.

actually i'm over NOT being sensible with my time because i'm clearly in denial.

i'm sick of not being able to go through a morning without feeling nauseous.

i'm sick of having to do nothing and still feeling crap.

i'm sick of people suggesting relaxing things for me to do.

i just want to sleep.

ITS NEARLY MIDNIGHT. WHY AM I STILL AWAKE?! MY HEAD FEELS LIKE ITS ABOUT TO EXPLODE!

ohhh dear.

i'm losing it.

i'm sure i could say lots of cool things here but i kid you not when i say that my brain is mush.

thoughts.

I think Lisa Rayment, Holly Dyroff & I were born to be friends.

I also think Joseph Michael George is just the coolest film guy.

I think that Glitch bar in Fitzroy is a sweet venue. Like someone's lounge room but scrappier.

I think film is fascinating but often verrryyyy predictable.

shout out to alex. keep your chin up. you can get through this.

i like tattoos.

I also really like Karl L's new couture collection for Chanel.

There were some pictures in the mX the other day..... hotttt!!!